SECH

so today, the final day. 

the day part of it: not very glamorous. 

SO HOT. and a hail storm? weird. 

anyways, i like getting dressed up. 

those hats were extremely uncomfortable though- and constantly tried to fall off. didnt really enjoy that part, but i guess it goes with the whole experience. we threw them in the air like you're supposed to..i didn't think about the fact that what goes up must come down. those hats have HARD EDGES and are quite painful went the hit your face. ouch. 

also, ive never said thank you so many times. i didnt really mind though, to be honest. 

well it was exciting, and weird, and sad. i really cant get over the fact that im done high school.. it doesnt feel real. 

there are so many people that i wonder if ill ever really see again. 

its an odd thing to say, but ill miss those people who i wasnt that great friends with. the ones that i liked and talked to sometimes but was never close with, that i know i wont just call up and say 'hey, lets hang out'. you'll still see you're close friends after high school, but those other people.. it sucks.

and, sounding like a huge geek, the teachers. ill miss some of those amazing teachers. 

its going to be a hard adjustment, everyone off doing there own thing (especially with me taking a year off and working)

im a little dejected thinking about next year.. im glad that i decided to take a year off, it feels like the right choice.. but i just feel like im going to be so lonely. all my friends will be off meeting new people, making new friends.. who am i gonna meet? 

i've started making a list of things that i have to do this coming year in my free time:

-learn to sew/make clothes

-knit a sweater 

-learn to drive (get my license) 

-get better at photoshop 

-get better at using my camera

-do more photoshoots

-paint and draw more

not a very exciting list thus far. i hope i actually do those things though.

i thought id cry at grad. 

i didnt. 

time for bed